finally i feel as though i am living again! kate and roxie were great to take me out the day that i quit. they wanted me to be able to rant and also relax with a glass of wine. we had to drive around a bit so that kate could pick up her car from the dealership and return the rental and then we headed straight to the liquor store to pick up a couple of bottles of wine. the weather was perfect! it was sunny and warm, and we drove around with the windows down and the radio blaring. roxie had picked out songs perfect for my mood. she started blaring "survivor" by destiny's child and it was almost comical how perfectly the words fit. we listened to other songs and substituted "man" with "addison" or "job." all in all, it really was a lot of fun.
we got back to the apartment where the conversation quickly turned to girl talk and other things to take my mind off of addison. hours passed in the blink of an eye, and i still had the drive to muskogee, so while they prepared to go out for the night, i got in my car and headed home. when i got to the door of kate and nick's apartment, though, i was almost hesitant to open the door. it was as if walking out the door ended the life i had known for the past two years ... and in a way it did. knowing that i won't be able to run upstairs or ping kate anytime i have a question or funny story is so sad to me. i remembered all that i had endured in the past year, too, and found the energy to walk out the door.
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SO GLAD YOU DID!!!! You have always had a lot of strength and courage, it was the best decision you could have made.
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