disappointment.

this weekend was my dear kendra's wedding. i was so excited for her. it has been a while since i've been emotional at a wedding, but i was definitely fighting back the tears at this one. kendra has always been like my kid-sister. i felt a little protective of her growing up, and she has always been one of the babies in my life (in a good way!). the slide show that played at the wedding reception made me feel old. there were pictures that seemed they had just been taken yesterday. i remember when they were taken (and i was three, four, and five at the time of some of them). there were also pictures of my granny and pictures of the noonkester kids all grown up. i felt grown. it was a strange feeling.

the wedding was also a little bittersweet. watching kendra stand there and commit her life to this man with whom she is so in love, made a large lump well inside my throat. i want so much to marry the man with whom i am so much in love.